sigh..another day...i miss my dear...heh.no one noes about him, eh? hehe..dunno, felt something with him. maybe it's because i haven't had this much attention form a guy for quite a long time. ah well, enjoy it while it lasts. exhausted. the tuition's killing me. i can't stand it much longer. school activities and school work are draining my energy. my dad isn't feeling better. heard from mum that the cancerous cells had multiplied. want to feel something, anything. but i feel like an empty shell, i don't even feel fear nor worry. i don't know why, i don't know what's wrong with me. i don't eat well anymore. my stomache hurts a lot at times. headaches come often. and my classmate isn't helping much with his annoying attitude. no one cares but my dear. no one knows. no one even bother to find out the reason. are these really my friends? are there any friends? even my best friend is faraway from me, and i'm really sad about it. i wish her best of luck with my cousin, for i know that they are good for each other. i hope nothing will happen to them. but what about me? has anyone thought how i would feel? has anyone asked how tiring it is for me to have double jobs and schooling at the same time? seriously, i don't know how much longer i can last. i don't even know how much longer my mum can last. she's earing herself out, i know. but so am i. maybe our level of weariness are different, but i am really tired, sometimes exhausted at times. what can i do but pray my energy and strength won't bail on me? there isn't much i can do, can i? luckily, my dear is there for me. thank you dear...you helped the sun to shine on the cloudy above me